Iximche: Sacred Divine Tree Pairings
One of my favorite spiritually uplifting and reenergizing spots in Guatemala is Iximche.
These ruins are situated in a gorgeous expanse of lush, vibrant green life. The energy there is palpable. It permeates your pores, fills your lungs with every in-breath, and takes away all care and concern on every out-breath. If you take your shoes off and walk barefoot along its grassy trails, the grounding is immediate.
There are several overgrown mounds there with the barely visible remains of Mayan structures, and almost every one has a pair of trees growing on it. My daughter and I love imagining that these Divine tree pairings hold the energy of our ancestors. When we visit, we make it a point to acknowledge and hug our favorite "couples".
The Myth of the Lone Tree
But there is one mound with a single beautiful tree, thick with leafy branches, that has always stood out to me.
When my connection with the lovely professor came to its painful end last year, I was convinced that tree represented my fate: to grow abundant and magnificent, sharing my light with the world, standing tall... but standing all alone.
However, the more I’ve done the work of Soul integration, the more convinced I am that the point of all this inner evolution is not isolation. We are not meant to hoard our love and light; we are meant to reflect it. I shine brighter when I feel safe, seen, and accepted. I like knowing there are people who care about my well-being, who check in, and who show up when the weight of the world feels impossible to bear alone.
The Current of Aliveness
I am ready to admit that I want a partner with whom I feel safe enough to bare my Soul. Someone to laugh with about the absurdities, relish in the mundane, mull over the metaphysical, and vent about the challenging.
I thrive in the current of energy that occurs in deep Soul relationships—those that go beyond superficial attraction. Relationships where desire becomes life force.
A bond that is lived and embodied, not just performed.
A longing that invites surrender after carrying so much alone.
A craving that allows agency after years of silence.
A searing hunger that rises from within when you feel fully seen and adored.
Committed devotion. Sacred presence. Spiritual fire. Pleasurable purpose.
The Fire Horse Eclipse & The Return of the Sun
This coming February 17th, is a Solar Eclipse in Aquarius that coincides with the start of the Chinese New Year of the Fire Horse. I've written about this ad nauseam, but it deserves the emphasis. It is a massive timeline shift, a time to shake the unstable and lock in what is meant for you.
Last week, the Universe sent me a trial. The Professor wrote me for my birthday.
For a moment, my heart soared. I thought this was the manifestation I had prayed for... the return of the connection I had felt, lived, and grieved so deeply. We exchanged a series of emails; I opened my heart, and I showed him the woman I have become—whole, radiant, grounded, and unapologetically intense.
The Lion felt my power. He saw my light. He witnessed my readiness. And in a moment of profound and admirable integrity, he admitted that he could not match my frequency. He told me that trying to meet me at my level would make him feel like an "imposter" in his current state.
He offered friendship... a safe, distant tether "behind a screen." My excitement turned to shock and then to clarity. I realized that in my absence, his eyes had once again grown adjusted to the dark, and he could no longer handle the glare.
The Resolution
The old me—the one who feared the "Lone Tree" fate—would have accepted that small box of friendship just to keep him in my orbit. I would have shrunk myself to fit into the small room he had available for me.
But I am not that woman anymore.
It broke my heart to feel him so dim and emotionally bankrupt. Especially after having felt & delighted in his brilliant light… and knowing all that he is capable of. But that is not a reflection on me; it is his personal and spiritual evolution unfolding in real time. He is experiencing growing pains, the Dark Night of the Soul perhaps, but I can’t help someone unwilling to let me in.
So I cried my tears. I let the shockwaves pass.
I refuse to let this unexpected turn of events make me doubt my beliefs. I refuse to feel like an imposter myself for hoping there is better waiting for me. The higher your frequency, the smaller the pool of people who can withstand that voltage without blowing a fuse.
I thanked him for his honesty. I thanked him for the gift of his release, for loving me enough not to drag me into his stagnation. And then, I gently closed the door.
I will not settle for someone for whom my love feels too heavy. I will not betray my own heart by accepting a lukewarm connection when my Soul and Spirit are burning with fire.
This experience has resulted in a resolution firmer than steel: I am the prize. I am the vessel. And I am ready to open the door, not to the past, but to what lies in store for me.
The fact that I am here, writing this, feeling this so deeply, and reaffirming my Emperor Standard... is the only proof I need that it is possible. I am real. Therefore, he has to be real. I will find my lifelong travel companion.
The Reactivation
So, I am reactivating my PenPal profile out of fierce determination and joyful curiosity. I have decided to listen to my angels and cast my net out into the Universe, trusting that the counterpart who can go "off-roading" with me is out there.
Even if it takes a long time and means throwing back countless carp, I can patiently wait. Besides, this Empress is busy building an empire. I’ve spent decades suffering with, chasing after, settling for, and rehabilitating men who are committed to stagnancy, complacency, and fear… so I can hold out, be unyielding, and take my time if it means better may finally show up.
And for all of you still looking for a willing partner like me, I want to share this powerfully resonant post from @colavsdaughter. I share this to remind us not to settle, to raise our standards, to demand the cost of entry, and to trust that what is meant for us will not back away.
“May those who are drawn to my body but turn away from my Spirit lose me forever. May those who only show up to feed on my light never see me. May those who crave my warmth but fear my truth stay far from my fire. May those who admire my glow but flee my shadow find refuge elsewhere. May those who want access without intimacy never find my door. May those who drink from my magic but starve my Soul forget the sound of my voice. May those who wanted me small and endlessly available be unable to access me now that I am whole. Amen!”
I am leaving my Profile Text below, because my truth can't be fully expressed in 1000 characters. This is the Manifesto of who I am and what I require. The vacancy is open, but only for a King.
If you found this blog entry and you read a couple more and feel you are a member of my Soul tribe, or a worthy contender, let's connect! And if you made it here from PenPal, even better!
I am not unattainable... I am a perfectly flawed human with many wounds left to heal. But I prioritize being better and doing better... and will always do everything in my power to repay many times over what others are willing to invest in me. In all aspects of my life. No exceptions.
The Manifesto: Intelligence, Depth, and Divine Fire
Sapiosexual. Spiritual. Sovereign.
I am a multifaceted woman—a single working mom, a Corporate Strategy consultant, and a Catalyst. Originally from Guatemala but raised in Texas, I carry a blend of grounded grit and mystical Latin Soul.
As a neurodivergent ENFJ, I don't do "small talk." I thrive on intellectual stimulation, witty banter, and diving into the deep end of the human experience.
I am a word enthusiast and a writer. I value integrity, authenticity, and the kind of rational empathy that allows for both profound feeling and clear thinking. I’m not looking for perfection, but I embody my standards and seek a counterpart who does the same. I am in search of a Conscious Man—someone who values personal and spiritual evolution as much as I do.
To catch my eye (and keep my heart), you must be:
Attentive & Intentional: You know that effort, consistency, and follow-through are the foundation of trust.
Emotionally Aware: You can navigate conflict with grace and provide emotional safety through thoughtful communication.
Mentally Captivating: Character and Energy are my ultimate aphrodisiacs. If you can keep up with my wit and match my Spirit, we’ll align.
I’ve done the work to ensure I am a whole, radiant vessel. I want to enjoy life with a man who doesn’t just want to consume my light but is ready to reflect, amplify, and dance with it.
If you are uninterested in Soul-alignment, keep swimming. But if you’re a witty Air or Fire sign (or simply a man of character) ready for an authentic connection... show me your light, and let’s see if our energies match.
Fluent in English and Spanish. ♒️☀️ ♊️🌙 ♍️👆 | 44 Master Builder ✨
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