There are moments in life that challenge our most
fundamental ideas about love.
My ongoing evolution and awakening led me to a man I have come to love, far exceeding all that I thought I was capable of feeling and all that I hoped to experience in this lifetime. Our special dynamic
continues to challenge my definition of love and broaden my understanding of it... enriching my life.
What happens when a connection we feel defies our conventional wisdom of what a 'relationship' should be?
This meditation is my attempt to navigate that question. A vulnerable
dialogue between my Water and Air energies: processing internal
conflict, integrating shadows, and finding my way back into light. A candid exploration of love outside of
conventional boundaries: a deep and spiritual connection that exists beyond
physical proximity.
It is a reflection on learning to love unconditionally, in
freedom, and at a distance. It's about facing the dragon of my past—my fear of rejection, attachment wounds, and the paradigms I've inherited—and
choosing to overcome them in order to open myself up to a beautiful, but sometimes terrifyingly new, experience of love.
My journey into the unknown has always been driven by the belief
that every bond I form holds deep spiritual significance. This moment, for me, is a lesson in letting go
of what I thought love was supposed to look like and embracing what it truly
is. In doing so, I've discovered a love that is not just a destination but a
transformative elevation of my soul.
May my introspections inspire you to reflect on the versions of love
in your own life with an open heart and a brave Spirit.
Circumstance and complications keep us apart
Unable to exist physically in the same place
I want to accept that I am where I have to be in the present
But where am I... am I in love?
This is not love like most people know it
One that I feel so deep, and yet I can't show it
Opening myself up, fully immersed in this connection
But what is this connection... can I call it love?
I think, if I consciously label it, I will understand it
Maybe I'm not supposed to
It is what it is / Es lo que es
But what is this... is it love?
Romantic love is common and conventional
Sharing a space, living together continuously
Yet two bodies can be together and disconnected
For now, I have to keep him in my life in this way
This manner of loving isn't wrong; it's just new
Allow it to be unconventional
Because you live apart... it's not love?
No one I know has experienced love like this
Creating a template, a new relationship model
The label is less important than the experience
But what is this experience... is it love?
I cry at random times, so overwhelmed
Endure emotions I can't always identify and can't explain
An energetic exchange that I can't control
At times I can't bear it, yet I can't let it go... am I in love?
Extremely complex, but so rare and beautiful
A high-level soul connection, undeniably special
If it is meant to be, it will last for eternity
But if I bond at a distance... can I call it love?
My mind keeps asking questions
Wondering where I place this in my life
Trying to rationalize it in traditional terms
Can I define love?
Love is not an evaluation; it is a way of being
Stop resisting what your heart is telling you
Stop trying to understand it, and simply exist
Relax into it... surrender.
I want him in my life
He is raising my vibration and frequency
Bringing up patterns, fears, and dynamics
Helping me heal, balance, and steady myself.
Coming into my own, in every way imaginable
I am not falling in love; I am elevating in love
Learning to love unconditionally, in freedom
Two souls in spiritual reaction and union.
© 2025 Jessica D.
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