FIRE: I am a highly accomplished, overachieving consultant specializing in corporate strategy and marketing. An ENFJ-A Protagonist with a desire to be a catalyst for transformation that creates better companies. An eloquent and charming communicator that inspires through compassionate influence. A people-first leader who empowers teams to bring about positive change; first in themselves and then in others and the brands they manage.
AIR: I am a purpose-driven, highly spiritual, intellectual drawn to the occult mysteries of the world. A philosopher with a preference for Steiner’s anthroposophy; the necessary and harmonious union of Spirituality and Science. I am a hermetic seeker and teacher with an unquenchable thirst for knowledge, progression, and expansion. A Mayan Goddess with a connection to Source and a profound Divine Inner Knowing urging me to Propagate the Infinite.
WATER: I am also an antisocial, neurodivergent outlier drawn to the safety and comfort of a reclusive existence. A fearful avoidant actively healing and recovering from codependency and CPTSD, trying to learn how to be more secure. I am a passionate romantic with an unwavering hope of finding for myself the kind of unconditional love I am so readily willing to give to others. A highly emotional empath with a core need to help others and form deep and intimate mental, emotional, and physical connections.
These separate but equally important aspects of my personality, my Soul, and my SPIRIT often enter into conflict with one another... clouding my Intuition and obstructing my journey into Self and greater spiritual growth. It is always one at the expense of another, one in spite of another, or one seeking to overpower another. I am five intense elements (Fire, Air, Water, Earth, and Spirit) trying to coexist in harmony. Five parts of an enigmatic puzzle that have yet to come together to form a full picture.
WATER: I am also an antisocial, neurodivergent outlier drawn to the safety and comfort of a reclusive existence. A fearful avoidant actively healing and recovering from codependency and CPTSD, trying to learn how to be more secure. I am a passionate romantic with an unwavering hope of finding for myself the kind of unconditional love I am so readily willing to give to others. A highly emotional empath with a core need to help others and form deep and intimate mental, emotional, and physical connections.
These separate but equally important aspects of my personality, my Soul, and my SPIRIT often enter into conflict with one another... clouding my Intuition and obstructing my journey into Self and greater spiritual growth. It is always one at the expense of another, one in spite of another, or one seeking to overpower another. I am five intense elements (Fire, Air, Water, Earth, and Spirit) trying to coexist in harmony. Five parts of an enigmatic puzzle that have yet to come together to form a full picture.
Currently, I am undergoing a rite of passage that is confronting me with the unrelinquishing old patterns that are proving quite difficult to overcome. An ongoing lesson in self-worth, self-love, and self-respect... a true test of my capacity to Let Go and Let God. I was Divinely inspired to join a Somatic Breath Workshop this past Sunday, through a series of kismet events. The impactful experience was incredibly effective in helping me discover and acknowledge my blocked Chakras; the areas of my life that still need clearing and healing.
As is the case in my life... Divine Interventions are always confirmed by synchronicity. My daughter and I have a nightly ritual of ending each day with quality time for healing and restorative “Loveys” together. We work on a puzzle, we color, we talk, we read or we watch a good show before winding down for the day and me putting her to bed. Our current show is Avatar: The Last Airbender on Netflix. In marvelous confirmation that I am on the right path, last night, one of the episodes we watched was S2E19.
The episode was all about Aang’s quest to master the Avatar state through a lesson in Chakra opening! There really is so much wisdom to glean from this entertaining and thought-evoking cartoon 🙌 I recommend watching all of it, but for the purposes of this blog post, I am just going to share the scene I am referencing.
I am an Aquarius sun, Gemini moon, and Virgo rising and my birth chart is unique in that I have two Grand Air Trines. For those of you who love Astrology as much as I do, you´ll note that that is a whole lot of Air Energy fueling this lifetime, and my mind and body, that I need to learn to harness and master. Mastering all of my Air Energy and Chakra blockages are mutually exclusive, so I am undergoing a spiritual purging in preparation for an upcoming date with Plant Medicine in April.
I was first called to Sacred Plant Medicine when my daughter was about 3 years old. At that time I was still neck-deep in a Martyr Complex, with a dash of Stockholm Syndrome, and a huge helping of deep-seated denial. Through another Divine intervention, I was led to an Austrian energy worker and healer named Edith Boyer-Telmer in San Marcos La Laguna here in Guatemala and a 5-day retreat that culminated with a life-altering Ayahuasca Spirit ceremony that lifted a veil. I was made aware of the generational pattern and cycle of emotional, physical, and psychological abuse in my family and childhood that I was reliving in my marriage and encouraged to Let Go.
This much-needed spiritual breakthrough was the turning point that led me to ultimately discover my ex-husband´s 9-year extramarital affair, complete with a second family. But that trial proved to be a long torturous personal journey out of a toxic relationship that ended up taking me another 6 years to finally free myself from. To be honest, and as is most evident in my recent blog posts 😂, I am still grappling with this lesson of acceptance, surrender, and letting go. I find myself once again working to relinquish my hold on a man who highlighted the persistence of a repeating pattern of attraction to emotionally unavailable men... my Soul trying desperately to heal all of the childhood wounds from my toxic relationship with my father.
Therein lies the urge to once again seek the Wisdom of the Shamans in plant ceremony... to dive into the spiritual realm once more for purification and transmutation. The process of necessary death in order to give birth to my True Essence. That I may free myself from the generational curse and unhealthy patterns that keep me from manifesting true love, full acceptance, and authenticity in all areas of my life. That I may begin the Mastery of the spiritual gifts I know I possess. That I may learn to harness them for the Greater Good and fully embody my life´s purpose as a healer, a leader... a guide out of darkness and into the Light of Infinite Love.
Want to learn more about my Energy Tools for Growth?
Air
Ayahuasca
Chakras
Divine Intervention
Earth
Energy Flow
Fire
Healing
Personal Growth
Spirit
Spiritual
Transmutation
Water
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